Pulled

Okay so today is one of those lazy kinda days where I'm laying in bed at 12:52 in the afternoon typing this while my head is propped on a pillow and the computer is being supported by the hubby's pillow.

I know it's shameful but with all the stuff that's been going on lately I can appreciate (and note I didn't say deserve) a lazy day.

Ever since I've stepped away from the blog I've had so much time on my hands that I've realized all of the things that was being grossly ignored by my infatuation of APC.  Of course I would claim that this was God's blog and all but let's be truthful for a minute, my pride was all up in this.

I can freely admit it now that I've taken time away and started to get my priorities in order.  It's also a reason why I can't actually say when I'll be completely back.  But yet I still feel this pulling back to the keyboard.

Gosh how good it feels to be typing these words to you.  I never though I'd miss it this much yet at the same time know that I needed a break from it so bad.

Since I've been away a lot has happened.  I've been back in the office full time for about three months now and I'm actually not bugging about it.  It's given me time to appreciate and have more respect for a work at home position.

Now I know that if God see's fit to put me in the position again in the near future that I won't take it for granted.  It's also let me know that I have become terribly complacent and just plain ole negligent with my blessings.

My husband and I are in that giddy place again.  You know the flirting all the time...sorta like before we were engaged and things got serious all of a sudden.  He's my best friend and now with APC on the back burner (where it should stay) I've realized how much more I really miss him.

I could give you the whole run down but I'll break it off in bits and pieces because regardless of the fact of how much I miss my blog just sitting here the last few minutes has made me realize that on this lazy in the bed day I have declared, I'd rather be sleeping than pecking away at this keyboard:)

Until the next time.

For Mom

Just wanted to share with you a new print I added to the shop.  I'll process these orders and ship the next day to get them out in time for Mother's Day.  Grab your's early so you can find the perfect frame!

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Where's The Light Switch?

It's been a while since my words have found there way into this online community.

I've been called away for a season and looking back I now know that God was separating me from this space because it just wasn't possible for it to be a part of my life right now.

In order to keep me away He took away the words.

I have truly been speechless on a number of several things that would have warranted my attention had I not been called away.

I've remained silence out of obedience even though my heart yearned to put all of the thoughts of my mind onto paper or into this online world.

Life can get blurry sometimes and seem so out of focus.

That's what it's been like for me.

I actually wondered whether He would actually call me back to writing because it seems like I've been gone for so long that I wouldn't have anything to say.

I'm positive He hasn't called me away but yet I'm uncertain as to if I'm supposed to stay if that makes any sense to you.

As humans we grow.  Growth can occur in minutes, overnight, weeks, years, or even through the duration of just a simple yawn.

This time away has seemed like forever for me but I know it's only a blink of an eye to God.

I've been resting and I've been living.  I've had such good times and realized that I was isolating myself to this online identity that I was trying to create.

I was so caught up in business exposure, sharing my testimony, and other online ministry stuff that I was failing to go out and be a willing living instrument.  I'm very much a part of my testimony and in order to have a testimony you have to actually be willing to live.

You must be willing to comply on all levels to what God asks of you.

These words have been long overdue (at least I feel that way) but for some it may be coming right on time.  As I come out of my hiding place for the moment it may be time for you to find yours.

It may be time to call a time out to this online world of blogging and live your life free of blogging schedules, online relationships, and online identities.

Am I back permanently?  I don't think so.  God hasn't said so therefore I won't make any definite plans.

What I will say is that I haven't forgotten about you.  The lights may be off here at A Peaceful Crib but eventually I know He'll direct me to the source and tell me to flip the switch.

Until then...

Breaking...Indefinitely

I'm afraid I'm not to happy with how much of my life my online identity has consumed.

It's hard to remember my life before blogging because I've been caught up and mesmerized with all the things possible to do in this online space.

The opportunity to minister and share my testimony with other women around the world has definitely been encouraging and wonderful.  What starts out all about God somehow has started to turn into a reflection of my self worth for the day.

The more comments and traffic that come through on APC would leave me feeling wonderful at the end of the day.  I don't like that.  I don't want that adrenaline rush that comes with a "successful" day in the blogging world.

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I need to live.

In order to share my testimony more effectively and encourage others in Christ I have to be out there in the middle of it all allowing God to use me in my simple every day life.

Snuggling with my husband after a long day.  Providing sloppy kisses to my baby.  Going outside and looking up at the sky.  Have I ever told you that sometimes I would stay cooped up in the house sometimes two to three days at a time?  Yep, totally not cool.

God has definitely called me to what I'm doing.  Creating scripture art and writing here is definitely my thing but I've let it become too much of a thing and I'm tired.

Something came over me yesterday.  An old mucked up mood that required some serious prayer and alone time with Jesus. 

I sat there in conversation with Him and was like "God seriously, what's wrong with me?  I'm tired.  You called me to this so why am I so frustrated and just feeling like a rat in a rat cage?  I'm running in circles you know?"

As I sat there patiently a scripture kept coming up in my spirit and I knew that I needed to open the word of God.  I wasn't able to find the scripture I was looking for but for some reason I thought it was in Philippians so that's where I ended up.

Wanna know God's answer?

Stop complaining and be content. Yep Philippians 2:14 and Philippians 4:11 jumped off the page at me. 

Not easy to sit there and look face to face with what YOU are doing wrong instead of reading an amazing promise from God along the lines of "I'll never leave you".

So I'm stepping away.  I'm not doing one of those breaks for a week and I'll be back.  I know that this requires a longer break than that and I'm actually happy about it.

February is coming up and perhaps I'll be all romatical with babycakes.  Make cute valentine's with my daughter to send to her buddies at school.  I think a pedicure and manicure is in order.  A little walk around the neighborhood.  Some giving.  Take Boom to see her first movie.  You know life stuff.  Stuff that I've conveniently I've told myself that I can't do because I work full time, have a kid, and run a part time business.

Time to stop the foolishness.

My etsy shop will still be open and I'll be taking custom orders on weekends.  I'll also be designing blogs, probably about one or two a month.  I will even still be writing when inspiration strike but I won't be publishing.  I won't be on FB or Twitter like a crazy person. 

I know I have a online identity but I need a real identity.  I am a person and it's time for me to go out and love others, love life, live like Jesus.  So I'm out, indefinitely.

See you later friends.  I'll be back one day:)

Hair...Gone.

I did something today.

Another big chop off the crown.

I chopped off my curly locks.  For something a little more manageable.

I needed change.  A change from an untamed beast sitting atop of my head every morning.

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