It's hard to remember my life before blogging because I've been caught up and mesmerized with all the things possible to do in this online space.
The opportunity to minister and share my testimony with other women around the world has definitely been encouraging and wonderful. What starts out all about God somehow has started to turn into a reflection of my self worth for the day.
The more comments and traffic that come through on APC would leave me feeling wonderful at the end of the day. I don't like that. I don't want that adrenaline rush that comes with a "successful" day in the blogging world.
I need to live.
In order to share my testimony more effectively and encourage others in Christ I have to be out there in the middle of it all allowing God to use me in my simple every day life.
Snuggling with my husband after a long day. Providing sloppy kisses to my baby. Going outside and looking up at the sky. Have I ever told you that sometimes I would stay cooped up in the house sometimes two to three days at a time? Yep, totally not cool.
God has definitely called me to what I'm doing. Creating scripture art and writing here is definitely my thing but I've let it become too much of a thing and I'm tired.
Something came over me yesterday. An old mucked up mood that required some serious prayer and alone time with Jesus.
I sat there in conversation with Him and was like "God seriously, what's wrong with me? I'm tired. You called me to this so why am I so frustrated and just feeling like a rat in a rat cage? I'm running in circles you know?"
As I sat there patiently a scripture kept coming up in my spirit and I knew that I needed to open the word of God. I wasn't able to find the scripture I was looking for but for some reason I thought it was in Philippians so that's where I ended up.
Wanna know God's answer?
Stop complaining and be content. Yep Philippians 2:14 and Philippians 4:11 jumped off the page at me.
Not easy to sit there and look face to face with what YOU are doing wrong instead of reading an amazing promise from God along the lines of "I'll never leave you".
So I'm stepping away. I'm not doing one of those breaks for a week and I'll be back. I know that this requires a longer break than that and I'm actually happy about it.
February is coming up and perhaps I'll be all romatical with babycakes. Make cute valentine's with my daughter to send to her buddies at school. I think a pedicure and manicure is in order. A little walk around the neighborhood. Some giving. Take Boom to see her first movie. You know life stuff. Stuff that I've conveniently I've told myself that I can't do because I work full time, have a kid, and run a part time business.
Time to stop the foolishness.
My etsy shop will still be open and I'll be taking custom orders on weekends. I'll also be designing blogs, probably about one or two a month. I will even still be writing when inspiration strike but I won't be publishing. I won't be on FB or Twitter like a crazy person.
I know I have a online identity but I need a real identity. I am a person and it's time for me to go out and love others, love life, live like Jesus. So I'm out, indefinitely.
See you later friends. I'll be back one day:)