Sometimes I seriously wish that I could turn off that part of the brain that thinks. I feel like it works against me sometimes. Thinking always leads to worrying and we all know worrying is counterproductive and goes against all of my good Christian beliefs.
Next week I go back into the office for training.
I've been avoiding it for about what three years now but exactly on my daughter's third birthday I will have to go back into the office 5 days a week for about four hours for training.
I never used to want to be a stay at home mom. Before having Boom I used to love getting my butt up every morning to go to work. Once I met those big brown eyes I became a mush of mess that cried at the thought of ever going back into the office.
I don't have one of those husband that thinks the wife should stay at home with the kids. Actually its pretty much the opposite. My man says I gotta work and it never really bothered me before.
I also have the man that wants more kids but seriously what's a girl to do? If I have more babies I'm sure as heck going to have a deeper desire to stay at home with my youngins. I don't want to have a bunch of kids to put them in daycare. That really just isn't something I want to do.
So for now I sit and I think. I pray and ask God for a flourishing online business but I wonder if that goes against what my husband desires for me to do.
Oh so confused!
Like I said I don't wanna think. I just want to lean on Jesus. Jesus, the main man in my life who has everything under control.
Anyways, I'm sorta looking forward to going into the office for a few hours next week as long as it doesn't become permanent, but if it happens that does become a case I just wonder what this means for future kiddos.
Well enough about me (sorry, yeah I know this is a totally random post)...what are things you just don't wanna think about?