Don't Wanna Think...

Sometimes I seriously wish that I could turn off that part of the brain that thinks.  I feel like it works against me sometimes.  Thinking always leads to worrying and we all know worrying is counterproductive and goes against all of my good Christian beliefs.

Next week I go back into the office for training.

I've been avoiding it for about what three years now but exactly on my daughter's third birthday I will have to go back into the office 5 days a week for about four hours for training.

I never used to want to be a stay at home mom.  Before having Boom I used to love getting my butt up every morning to go to work.  Once I met those big brown eyes I became a mush of mess that cried at the thought of ever going back into the office.

I don't have one of those husband that thinks the wife should stay at home with the kids.  Actually its pretty much the opposite.  My man says I gotta work and it never really bothered me before.

I also have the man that wants more kids but seriously what's a girl to do?  If I have more babies I'm sure as heck going to have a deeper desire to stay at home with my youngins.  I don't want to have a bunch of kids to put them in daycare.  That really just isn't something I want to do.

So for now I sit and I think.  I pray and ask God for a flourishing online business but I wonder if that goes against what my husband desires for me to do.

Oh so confused!

Like I said I don't wanna think.  I just want to lean on Jesus.  Jesus, the main man in my life who has everything under control.

Anyways, I'm sorta looking forward to going into the office for a few hours next week as long as it doesn't become permanent, but if it happens that does become a case I just wonder what this means for future kiddos.

Well enough about me (sorry, yeah I know this is a totally random post)...what are things you just don't wanna think about?